"I want my nose done but I'm held up by the society of yesterday"
I've always been fascinated with body modification. In other words tattoos and piercings. I absolutely am fascinated with them. What restricts me? The older generation. I love my Mother to death but she just doesn't give me the freedom I've been looking for so long. Yes I get other liberties as well like going out with friends til late at night and no set sleeping period but I long to do something to my body and her respecting my wishes once. I'm turning 18 soon, and as some people said - "Go do it. You're 18 soon and you're legally allowed to do what you want. Mother can't stop you then."
On a conscious level, I do not want to break a rather good relationship with my mother. As a single mother, she has single-handedly raised me and we've bonded like sisters. I don't want to break this bond. Then why do it eh? It's just the reason that I finally want to have control over my own body and what I do. I'm, of course, willing to take the consequences of my actions. Be more matured as they say.
So I'm now torn in between the two. To do what I long and yearned to do for a long time and
respect the relationship I have with Mother. I did have a serious discussion with her once and I don't know how to explain this, but you know how mothers can change and twist the topic? It ended up being something to do with me not concentrating on my studies. I was like WTF? I have like 5 days off a week in college. Oh yeah..Sure I'm not going to concentrate. 2 days a week..hmm How long can I slack?
And the other reason was that I shouldn't do it in college. I was like: "Mum, if you had said that when I was in high school, I would have understood. I'm now in college and about to hit 18." (Moreover you're not going to celebrate my 18th anyways -so at least let me get something I want for my 18th if you're not going to be here.)
She then rambled on how our asian/Chinese nose's cartiledge is rather thick and it would hurt more. I was again like..I had my tongue done once. I think my tongue is thicker than my nose. Gah..Thinking about it makes me frustrated. I SOOO wanna get it done but now restricted by my own conscience.
Forgetting the nostril, I have also been thinking about a tragus piercing. If you don't know what a tragus is: This pic should explain it.
Yeah..here's an example of what it is. I have been looking at it even through Year 12 where one of my ex-classmates got it done and looked so pretty on her. She didn't get the ring like this one but a nice diamante bar.
What to do? I'm going to discuss it further with my mother. Never Give Up! Never Surrender!!
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